Its been quite sometime that i have not written anything in my blog and it shows that my life runs as usual. But today i have to confess, i have a lot problems that have to be settle and its making me depressed.....
Firstly about my mother, she is not feeling well again its all bcs of black magic(i don't want to be called superstitious but its true). Both of us had an argument last month and not in talking terms,i tried to convinced her but no used she refused to talk. I really felt hurt when she talk without even thinking and keep on blaming me, i cried a lot...Now I'm very scared something bad will happen to her and i don't want to lose her, there is a lot of things that she has to do and i want her to get the chance to be granny for my brothers children (mine I'm not sure whether I'll marry or not in the first place)
Second my boyfriend..... this morning we had a quarrel bcs he said i have a negative energy,don't want to listen to his opinion and think big about myself then he used the words that can make me upset. i just ignored him since i used to it. Just now we went for dinner to one nasi kandar shop, since then his mood swings and i don't understand why? came back home i tried to asked him he said i wont change my attitude, what is he trying to say? i really tell the truth whenever I'm out with my boy friend i really have to be careful bcs alight mistake will make him think I'm bad. And i don't know why he's upset with me i din do anything and further more i dare not to see around bcs later he might say that i see that guy la this guy la.... why he still think that i like to see other guys? i just want him to trust me and be happy without making our self hurt. i feel like want to cry till my lung tear a part...
Thirdly my job.... my very scared for myself. i hope this job will suit me and i can get a nice colleagues to work with.
Forth my exam.... i just only start reading my economics and MIA din touch at all, I'm scared I'll fail and i know i will... With all the problems how am i going to concentrate in my studies.................... :(
Babaji please help me to settle all my problems and i will surrender to your lotus feet... OM SAI RAM!!!
