TeNsIoN..............

Its been quite sometime that i have not written anything in my blog and it shows that my life runs as usual. But today i have to confess, i have a lot problems that have to be settle and its making me depressed..... 


Firstly about my mother, she is not feeling well again its all bcs of black magic(i don't want to be called superstitious but its true). Both of us had an argument last month and not in talking terms,i tried to convinced her but no used she refused to talk. I really felt hurt when she talk without even thinking and keep on blaming me, i cried a lot...Now I'm very scared something bad will happen to her and i don't want to lose her, there is a lot of things that she has to do and i want her to get the chance to be granny for my brothers children (mine I'm not sure whether I'll marry or not in the first place)


Second my boyfriend..... this morning we had a quarrel bcs he said i have a negative energy,don't want to listen to his opinion and think big about myself then he used the words that can make me upset. i just ignored him since i used to it. Just now we went for dinner to one nasi kandar shop, since then his mood swings and i don't understand why? came back home i tried to asked him he said i wont change my attitude, what is he trying to say? i really tell the truth whenever I'm out with my boy friend i really have to be careful bcs alight mistake will make him think I'm bad. And i don't know why he's upset with me i din do anything and further more i dare not to see around bcs later he might say that i see that guy la this guy la.... why he still think that i like to see other guys? i just want him to trust me and be happy without making our self hurt. i feel like want to cry till my lung tear a part...


Thirdly my job.... my very scared for myself. i hope this job will suit me and i can get a nice colleagues to work with.  


Forth my exam.... i just only start reading my economics and MIA din touch at all, I'm scared I'll fail and i know i will... With all the problems how am i going to concentrate in my studies.................... :(


Babaji please help me to settle all my problems and i will surrender to your lotus feet... OM SAI RAM!!!

i'm so tired....

I just get a job as an Accounting Assistant in Penang Club.I was very relief when i got the job but as i work there then i realize that job is quite tough and there is no time to take a breath.... 

I heard from a person saying that the girl (Indian) who resigned from the position is because other staff passing all their work to her and she earn much more lesser than them! She work there for 3 years and her basic pay is RM 1300 plus the allowance for RM 150. Whereas a Chinese girl who join not longer than 1 year gets RM 1900 basic pay. i am not being racists here but this is what happening in Malaysia almost all company practice the same concepts (Chinese get more pay cause they have a lots of commitment). 

And the person said as he read my job description he asked my Finance Executive why did she wrote his job description(Store Clerk) as well? You know what she said, she wants to let the new girl (me) to know all job functions. what the hell!! as a new staff I don't know which is my job and which is not so she is making used of me. To tell the truth i am very tired working there!!!

Sometimes i felt regret resigning from my previous work... The benefit that she told me when i came for interview is no more cause she said management have decided to change the system...
what should i do ? i have to stay calm cause i need the money but my heart and mind is blowing!!! I'm stressed...

finally~

finally i have my own blog ready~ hahahahaha